I Wanna Escape

I guess it really got to me
Tears wouldn't stop flowing on Monday night
Thought I had it all sorted out but clearly I didn't

I still care about people's perceptive of my performance
And that I feel unjustified for the treatment given

Tried forcing myself to sleep the entire night
Watched vids of my boys on repeated mode
It did lighten my spirits a little
I eventually dozed off at around 4am in the morning

Probably due to the lack of sleep
And my rebellious mode was somehow switched on
I didn't go to work the next morning

Towards the night, I got paranoid again on the work waiting for me due to my absence
I dread what's waiting for me
I feel naked and torn for what's gonna happen

SS4 BKK - 19th March 2012

We woke up early for a swim that morning
The boys aren't coming for gym these days
It doesn't really matter anyway
With or without them, we'd still be fully utilising the pool

Breakfast was truly surprising
Kyuhyun was there too having his breakfast
We presumed he just arrived, with the number of ELF surrounding the restaurant
He was zooming in and out filling up his plate in his possible fastest pace
I still remember him getting apple juice and ketchup
He ate in uber fast speed too!
At least we get our incentives for staying in the same hotel
Heh~

We checked outta our hotel and left for Platinum Mall
Again not much shopping done
Lunch was yummilicious fake shark fins soup
We left for airport in the afternoon
Home sweet home at 10pm in the night

This marks the end of the short BKK trip
Marks the end of my SS4 tour with the boys

끝

SS4 BKK - 18th March 2012

Trying to recall what happened weeks ago
My memory is already starting to fail me

Shan and I woke up for an early swim
It felt good to be swimming after so long
Breakfast at hotel lobby after that
We saw Yesung's parents and Donghae's mum eating there too

Left hotel for Chatuchak when it was still morning
Puppies there are soooooo cute
If only I could own one too
There wasn't really much shopping done
We were hurrying ourselves through the market

Finally managed to find glutinous mango rice while combing through the streets
We hurried back to our hotel to eat and freshen up before our trip to concert venue
Bought tons of Maxim contact lens there since there were free Donghae posters given

We got into a fight with the security staff at the venue
Their body check was infuriating enough
I even had to open my wallet to show them what's inside
They dug through my bag, took out my posters and cast them aside without a word
That was the final straw
I practically shouted at them

At least my posters were still there when I exit from the venue
Humph!

The people queuing in front of us were more poor thing
They couldn't even bring their mobile phone into the venue
Stupid concert organizer!

LeeTeuk fell during the concert
Shindong was pushing him backstage
Siwon turned and wet towels for him, murmuring 바보 twice
Finally LeeTeuk was pushed backstage to deal with his wound
He didn't play piano or saxophone for his solo
Tears were welling up in his eyes
At the end of the concert, he couldn't even walk with all the crying
Ah... heartache >.<

They sing "Marry You" impromptu towards the very end
I wish the concert would go on forever
I wish this wasn't my last SS4

We went back to our hotel and left for massage
Bought KFC and instant noodles back to our room for supper

The blues of returning to work soon sets in
The blues of last SS4
Moody... ...

Back from Guangzhou

We arrived from Guangzhou inbound Singapore on Saturday morning, 5.30am
Changed bed sheet and showered, ready for bed at 7am in the morning
Saturday was spent through sleeping
Sunday was sunny, perfect weather to wash partial of the thick clothings I brought to China

I didn't sleep well last night
Couldn't stop thinking about the work that awaits me
And who knows if anyone took the chance to stab me in the back

The girls reminded me last night that it is a short week this week due to Good Friday
Thank God

Monday morning heavy downpour didn't make it easier to wake up

Could this week pass faster?
I dread it so much...